I never thought I could love this job so much. For almost 19 years I have struggled, laughed, and cried over my job. It was by accident that I got this job and I didn't know if I would ever make it mostly cause of how sick it made me.
I feel I was taught by the best there was in this field but today when I read an article in the
Ensign titled What Mothers Can Learn from the Savior. This article talked about how mother's are like the Savior in the things they do for their children. I never had thought being a mom was like the Savior in anyway, but this article explained how it was. I have really been struggling with Johna and Brandon growing up and not knowing what my place in their was anymore. For 19 years my life has revolved around them and doing for them. Now they are old enough they pretty much take care of themselves. My Heavenly Father knew I really have been struggling so he sent me a great article plus little things that made me realize no matter how old Johna and Brandon get they will always need their mom.
Last week Johna sent me a text that read " I just saw a Duck" and I asked her if it was a mommy or daddy. She said a mommy and boy did she quack at me. I then responded by telling her she was quaking at her babies so you wouldn't hurt them. Johna the responded just like you. I began to laugh at to myself and realized she knew I would protect her anyway I could. Later as we talked on the phone she had to tell the whole story over again and we laughed together and celebrated that she had did so well on her test. This was a huge wake up call for me that even though she feels she a big girl now, there are times that she just wants mom to know she is okay.
Brandon has always known how to make me smile. I must admit we spent a lot of time together since Marc and Johna work nights. This last week we have spent a lot of time watching the Olympics and discussing his World War class together. I love talking with him and I am so amazed at his comments about things. But then he brought up a conversation that he and his friends had about parents. Brandon friends could not believe that he enjoyed being with his mom. Then he added " I only enjoy being with you because you make me laugh cause your so short and I tower over you, then he said I Love You can I drive to the store? I laughed and he said no really they can't believe we have real conversations about everything. He then proceeds to tell me that none of his friends talk to their parents about stuff. Wow I must be doing something right.
All of these things got me thinking about my life. Everyday as Johna leaves for school she says "Good Bye Mom and I Love You", and I say the same thing back and wish her good luck on anything she has going that day. I drive Brandon and his friend to school everyday and when he gets out of the car he tells me I Love You Mom and Have a good day. Yes, a teenage boy tells his mom he loves her in public. I also tell him the same thing. Every night now that they are big they come to my room and climb on my bed and we talk about the day and they tell me Good Night and I Love You Mommy. Could I ask for anything more? No, I am blessed to have my kids there is nothing in this world better than them.
I Love You too Johna & Brandon :)